windy lightbulbs

Can I be honest?

 

I LOVE my west Texas family, and I LOVE my uncle's ranch. But I absolutely cannot stand wind.  It's been so windy here lately that I feel like I'm in the panhandle!  I don't like the feeling of wind on my skin, or hair blowing on my face (especially when it gets in my mouth, oh, ick, yuk!!!) and I am a person who likes stillness.  Can't stand windchimes.  Even the knowledge that it is windy outside really bothers me, ha ha.  Buying lightbulbs at Walmart almost sends me into a panic; see, I really don't like fans blowing on me. And they're on the same aisle, and they always have all the fans turned on full-blast, where I have to stand in front of them to pick out my lightbulbs. It's almost not worth getting the best price! ARGH

 

It's also been a little windy for me, personally, with my job.  I guess I thought that once I resigned, everything would be smooth sailing from then on out, and I could finish up the year with a big fat smile on my face and walk away confused, wondering why I thought I wanted to quit.  HA.  No doubts here.  Every day I'm presented with new and unique reasons for why I feel so confidently that God is moving me into something else.  No, I still don't know exactly what.  But that's okay.  I know that this is not it.  "Happiness" is not the biggest motivating factor for me in life, but it's gotta play some part.  I'm no martyr.  A martyr would stay in a job she hated until it killed her.  I have a different approach; I want to be my best so God can use me to the fullest.  If I stay here... I'll be weak and depleted all the time, and inclined to go to my house every afternoon and just be a hermit.  I trust God will reveal what He intends for me to do, in  His time.  For right now, I can't think past the end of this week.  A lot of teenagers today (as a general rule) are mouthy, disrespectful, sloppy, lazy, and prideful (and so are their parents).  Right now, I'm having trouble even liking some of my students.  I know I have a ministry here, but I also know there's an ending date.  I would like to work with teenagers again someday, but in a different capacity.  And if you look to the right, you'll see that I have a countdown.

 

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So anyway, I really love quiet, still peaceful days.  They rejuvenate me for these windy times.

 

Eph. 2:14 "He is our peace."